This post will most likely make no sense, as I seem to have trouble putting into words how I feel. So bear with me, please. I just want to kill myself. I don't want to live anymore. I am set on doing this. I have my method, and my date set. I am extremely depressed. I just don't want to go on. I have gone off all my meds. I am self medicating now. I am becoming more paranoid, I am starting to think I am being followed by the government. I am starting to lose my mind again. I just don't feel like I deserve to be helped.