Hi everyone. So, I had a particularly bad 'episode' today, that seemed to come out of nowhere. The best way I can describe it was, a sudden anxiety attack coupled with extreme depressive and suicidal thoughts. I honestly don't know what, if anything, triggered it, because I was doing relatively well as recently as yesterday. My depression//suicidal feelings have been erratic my whole life, but I can't remember the last time I had anything this extreme come on so suddenly. It made it impossible for me to focus in class today, which is a serious problem. As I'm sure many of you are aware, pre-med classes are damned intense, and this stupid depression is directly interfering with my scholastic progress at the moment. I've been doing my best to reject my suicidal thoughts, and normally I don't have too much trouble in doing so, but for today in particular it's been hard on me. I don't know what I can do right now; I don't even have health insurance yet so getting any form of professional help for my depression is basically out of the question.... So far basically everyone I've met here has been very supportive and helpful, so hopefully by posting on here, it'll help me through this.