I don't know what is wrong with me? I can't handle anything anymore... autism or not... my daughter starts screaming and crying refusing to eat, wash, toilet get dressed and do the the most simplest of things and I just can't handle the crying so I leave go upstairs and sit shaking, hyperventilating curled up in a ball with my fingers in my ears. All the while fighting the urge to just grab my keys and run... I don't have any diagnosis and yes I am a terrible mother running from her children... meanwhile I love them with all my heart and soul... BUT I can't help them anymore. I can't eat, sleep (2hrs last night, 4 hrs the night before) or stop shaking... Is this a nervous breakdown? Please ANY input would be so appreciated!