okay, this is some backstory to my ordeal here. Im 16 never had a girlfriend,hell never kissed a girl. i feel like shit when im by myself like right now i cant get the thought of killing myself out of my mind, and tearing up as i write this... im not bullied in school, i have a job, car, no lisence though( not old enough). i have no real reason to feel like this, but yet i still do. Ive been talking to this girl but lately she has been drifting away i havent told her about these feelings im having right now cuz i know ill scare her away. my kinda half friends that i talk to every once and a while have labled me as insecure, i really only have one real friend. ive told my parents about how i feel depressed but not about me wanting to kill myself, they just keep telling me it'll pass. ive felt like this before but never to this point. I dont do drugs, i used to smoke pot but i stopped because i honestly didnt like it very much. I don't drink either... i used to be you could say a bully, but only to those half friends i have because we all used to rash on eachother... but i never talk to them anymore... i try and treat everyone nicely now, like at work when a bunch of special needs kids came in my coworkers were smiling and chuckling. i was disgusted. okay im wrapping this up. i really dont know what to do with myself right now.