I'm so mad at myself right now. I'm feeling very suicidal, but I can't make myself tell anyone. Most of my friends have told me to lean on them when ever I need it, but all I can say if they asks is that I'm fine. I'M NOT FINE! Why is that so f** hard to say? :unsure: There are 9 on my msn right now that I could talk to, who would for sure support me, but I can't do it. :cry: I guess I'll make it alone this time, like all the other times, but I wish I could learn how show my friends that I'm weak. Stupid, stupid Rukia!!!