I sometimes get the intense desire to close my eyes and just stop. To feel true, real rest, just having everything leave me alone from here on out. I'd never actually kill myself, but the depression is real and there. My question is, this feeling of desperately wanting life to end is not quite the same as the urge to die or harm myself. I won't act on it... but it's consuming my thoughts. What is this? How would I even categorize this?