I haven't done this type of stuff in a long time. I'd say life has kept me so preoccupied that thoughts of SH hasn't had a chance to enter my mind. However lately it seems like Ive finally caught up with life. Ive got it all figured out and its seriously not that amusing. Its a bad joke. I cut again only because in a time of crisis I am my only friend and such pain is the only release effective enough to maintain my sanity. I never want to hear from them people i despise of again. I want to disappear. I don't want help or sympathy. I want encouragement.