Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by mikest8, Jun 6, 2011.
Comments will also be welcome.
i voted for other.
1. my music and my poetry
and 2. knowing that somewhere their are people like me, and i'm not alone
fear of being mutilated to the point where i wouldnt be able to attempt again.
and a lack of acceptable methods.
not much else stops me. if i could wipe out those two things i'd have a date
At the risk of being too religious on here, my honest reason for not killing myself is that I'm afraid that if I take my own life, what comes next will be worse than this life.
im here helping (i hope), but when im down its defiantly my family that makes me keep it in my head as a fantasy..
Being in shock.
I'm still in shock. When i come out of it, then will it be time. Perhaps i need someone to throw ice water on me.
My fiancee and my mother. What happens to them if I do it? How much pain are they going to have to go through because of what I did? Asking myself those questions makes me keep those thoughts at bay. If I ever lost my fiance though and something happened to my mom, I'm definitely dead.
im just a coward and cant do it . i have methods and everything but cant be a man and do it
i even fail at failing life!
I put lack of courage, but it's also my family. I wish there was a way of getting out that wouldn't hurt them.
I have multiple reasons but chose other because my biggest reason for still being here is my dog. I know that might sound silly... but she pines for me if I'm away from her for a week. I can't imagine what she'd do if I were gone for good. The closest I ever came to going through with it... I snapped out of it when she scratched at my door.
My other reason is fear of failure.
concern about relatives and friends
Music, Seems like a great temporary escape. So agreed with the masked depressant
The fact that i have been given a second chance to sort my life out, also there is no way i would want anyone to have to find me
other. It's two things, mood dependent.
During my better moments: Unfinished business. Unfulfilled potential. Possibility of recovery.
During the low points: I don't care about any of the aforementioned. At these times I suppose the answer is procrastination.
I can't do it because of my daughter and grandaughter.. My daughter is suicidal also,..She would follow my foot steps.. That would leave my grandaughter alone..
It is only a biological drive for me. It has been decided that this life would be wasted since i was born. Being on the forums maybe, music, chess online... my life is more or less this.
Right now it's my psychologist. She gave me an ultimatum and although it's tough I'm doing what I can to fully cooperate with her. I really don't want to lose her support.
my kids and only my kids!!!
no matter how bad it gets i have to swim through the shit to the other side as i have to be there for them.
its not just about having both parents as my wife would do a great job, but its about the days when they need me and only me. in the future im sure they will make life mistakes and i want to be there no matter what to say its all ok and not to worry you have family who love you and will do anything for you.
i medicate and try my best so they wont have to suffer or feel pain. id take their pain any day!!!