What Led You To Consider Suicide?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by shady9000, Feb 1, 2007.

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  1. shady9000

    shady9000 Active Member

    Tell your story in full detail, what went wrong that has caused you to deliberate suicide.
     
  2. Kugatsu

    Kugatsu Active Member

    I'd say my current lack of and recent loss of a lot of things. Lost a girl, lost my scholarships, can't go to school, no job, no money, my friends have all up and left me, and the crushing realization that I have no marketable talents, and pretty much no real future outside of becoming a janitor and eeking out a miserable, lonely life.

    Before that, it was the crushing realization that my brother was completely out of control cause he was addicted to crack at the time, my mother wasn't going to help me because she was busy sucking every other guy in town off and sleeping over their houses drunk as shit, and my friends wouldn't help me because they had their lives all sorted and they were too busy keeping it that way to help me out.
     
  3. shady9000

    shady9000 Active Member

    yah that sucks. well at least we'll be alone together lol
     
  4. shady9000

    shady9000 Active Member

    so did u deal with it already or r u dealin with it now?
     
  5. Kugatsu

    Kugatsu Active Member

    The second part has kind of been dealt with. Brother's in rehab, my mother is acting less like a slut, but that can only last for so long. Eventually my brother will come back home and it'll start all over again like it does for most recovering crack addicts and the hell will begin again, and my mother will relapse soon enough so I'll have that to look forward to.

    I'm currently stuck in the first part of my post. And while I have concider suicide and have suicidal thoughts, I am not going to go out of my way to do it. I don't want to commit suicide. Just the fact that I've had it come out as an option is what horrifies me. And even more, is that it just keeps looking better and better.
     
  6. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I've considered suicide off and on most of my adult life. When "things" are too much for me to handle, when I don't feel that I"m contributing anything good to the world or to my immediate family, then I'd consider killing myself. Recently I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to die, I just want to be 'someone else': someone successful, someone loved, someone needed... So yes, I consider it frequently, but not really - only fantasizing, daydreaming.:sad:

    least
     
  7. shady9000

    shady9000 Active Member

    what i wana know is r u gona help ur brother and mother stay on the straight and narrow? or r u gona sit back and watch them both destroy themselves?
     
  8. shady9000

    shady9000 Active Member

    k well who r u now? and wut dont u do that makes u so unimportant?
     
  9. For me, suicide is not some irrational route to freedom. Sure I have plenty of problems in my life but never do I jump the gun and decide to kill myself spur of the moment. For me I know that there is something much better than the life I have now. I know that in death I will reclaim life. I know it.


    And don't look at me and think I'm a fool for believing in reincarnation. I don't believe in karma, or people being reincarnated back as animals or flowers or anything stupid like that. In fact, I used to be a protestant Christian untill I discovered how ludicrous christianity is (no offense to anyone).


    People are afraid of death because it is the unknown. People are afraid of what they are unsure of. But once you realize that death brings life, and know it for a fact, you will be completely content and all too happy to die.
     
  10. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I'm mother to 2 teenage girls, and, according to them, not a very good one - tho I bust my ass trying to do everything I'm supposed to do. I'm an exhausted self-employed worker who doesn't make enough money and will not be able to retire in 12 yrs, so will have to work til I drop in the traces... not a pleasant prospect.:sad:

    What I DON'T do is... whatever I'm supposed to do to be a fully-realized human being. I don't do very well as a mother and will lose my youngest in a few months when she rejects me and moves in with her dad.

    just too tired to explain anything, suffice it to say that I'm not doing very well at anything right now, and forever regret my bad choices in the past... which is why I'm stuck in this mess now...

    least
     
  11. Kugatsu

    Kugatsu Active Member

    I tried helping them before. If they want to destroy themselves, they can do that all they want. I don't care.
     
  12. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    Why I am suicidal?

    It is best for everyone, everyone else knows it, and so do I. There is no point keeping a scummy, worthless person on this Earth.

    I'm just selfish by being here now
     
  13. Ross PK

    Ross PK Member

    Hey scum, I never would've thought you wanted to commit suicide yourself.
     
  14. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    You don't know me, you know nothing about me in anyway, you know nothing about my life, so you would not have been able to make an accurate judgement.
     
  15. Ross PK

    Ross PK Member


    Sorry, it's just that you were helping me and seemed so pro-life.
     
  16. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    I am. But for everyone else.

    My view of my life is totally different from how I view everyone elses
     
  17. Ross PK

    Ross PK Member

    Surely you can't think that your life is worse than mine?
     
  18. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    I'm not into comparing, as far as I can see comparing something like that just shows ignorance. But what I do know is that I am slowly killing myself by what I do to myself, and that people will be happier with me dead.
     
  19. Ross PK

    Ross PK Member

    Like eating unhealthily? I'd do that myself, I love food, but I think the way you'd die from it would be pretty bad, like heart attacks and stuff. :sad:
     
  20. Shauna Lea

    Shauna Lea Staff Alumni

    Thats not true scum. I havent spoken to u alot, and i dont really kno u either, but from what i have seen ur a nice person! :smile: Take care xoxo
     
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