Where do i go from here? What happens down the road, when the road seems to have no light....no on it near me, or far ahead. What's the point if there is nothing ahead except more pain, more loneliness and more anguish? This is not new to me, only reaching it's climax....tonight I drank. I don't drink, but I drank 3/4 of a bottle of red wine. Felt good for 30 minutes.
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Well, 630am, another start to this day. Let's see where it takes me....
If I focus enough at work I will not need to think about life much, that is pretty much the only way I survive these days. It's the only way i know how. I am afraid to think too much anymore about my own situation, my own pain, my own loneliness. Yesterday I saw someone walking down the street laughing and talking on the phone, this person looked REALLY happy....I wondered how that felt. Had to refocus at that point or i would have lost myself again in my own emotions. Still trying to figure out what my own purpose is, the problem is, I can't figure it out and it seems like a waste.
Anyhow.......
If I focus enough at work I will not need to think about life much, that is pretty much the only way I survive these days. It's the only way i know how. I am afraid to think too much anymore about my own situation, my own pain, my own loneliness. Yesterday I saw someone walking down the street laughing and talking on the phone, this person looked REALLY happy....I wondered how that felt. Had to refocus at that point or i would have lost myself again in my own emotions. Still trying to figure out what my own purpose is, the problem is, I can't figure it out and it seems like a waste.
Anyhow.......
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