What next?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by ManOhHugs, Sep 16, 2007.

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  1. ManOhHugs

    ManOhHugs New Member

    Where do i go from here? What happens down the road, when the road seems to have no light....no on it near me, or far ahead. What's the point if there is nothing ahead except more pain, more loneliness and more anguish? This is not new to me, only reaching it's climax....tonight I drank. I don't drink, but I drank 3/4 of a bottle of red wine. Felt good for 30 minutes.
     
  2. ManOhHugs

    ManOhHugs New Member

    Tonight I am crying....what the hell am I doing? I am crying and it physically hurts....never felt actual physical pain in my face to cry, but I think that's how hard I am crying.
     
  3. Shyfear

    Shyfear Well-Known Member

    :hug:

    I feel the same way. There are so many times I want to pick up a bottle of vodka and forget everything. I dont drink either. Sometimes depression just makes you want to do dangerous things.

    What's wrong? I want to try to help you
     
  4. zaraki

    zaraki Active Member

    ManOhHugs, I know if must be difficult for you right now and it might feel as if no one's listening, but we are. We want to help you get through this hardship. Stay strong and tell us what's wrong.
     
  5. ManOhHugs

    ManOhHugs New Member

    Thanks for that guys. Hope fully the days coming will get better.
     
  6. Shyfear

    Shyfear Well-Known Member

    You're very welcome! If you ever need to talk I'll always be here to listen <3
     
  7. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    Hi,

    welcome to the forum..

    i am here most the time so if you ever need anything or just want to chat i am only a pm away..

    :hug:
     
  8. ManOhHugs

    ManOhHugs New Member

    Well, 630am, another start to this day. Let's see where it takes me....
    If I focus enough at work I will not need to think about life much, that is pretty much the only way I survive these days. It's the only way i know how. I am afraid to think too much anymore about my own situation, my own pain, my own loneliness. Yesterday I saw someone walking down the street laughing and talking on the phone, this person looked REALLY happy....I wondered how that felt. Had to refocus at that point or i would have lost myself again in my own emotions. Still trying to figure out what my own purpose is, the problem is, I can't figure it out and it seems like a waste.
    Anyhow.......
     
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