I don't know where to begin or what to say.. So many things i could say but cant find the words. I've finally managed to completely mess up my life & will loose everything, all from stupid decisions ive made. I don't feel the need to exist any more, to carry on, its all gone.. I have no one to turn to. I'm alone. Ending my life seems like the better decision with every day that goes y. I don't know what to say.. this being my feeble attempt to reach out.. I don't.. Don't care any more.. I don't want to e here any more.