I've been kind of into suicide and self mutilation for a while. I had a drug ring childhood for about 10 years, and now I'm sort of safe...but it still affects me to this day. I don't want to go into details. Along with that, I have anxiety disorder. And when I have a panic attack all these thoughts and urges go through my head. I told my dad, and even showed him what it does. All he did was say it was hormones and put me on The Pill to control them. I'm scared and I don't know what to do, since my dad doesn't even realize.