I need help. I think about killing myself all day, everyday. I've seen (am currently seeing) a doctor to help and I am on medicine ( Lamictal & Zoloft) but it's not working. It can't be working. I tell my Dr. I'm fine, but I'm not, I am just too ashamed to admit it. I have begun cutting myself, first time ever. I cut myself on my stomach, then twice on my leg. I didn't feel anything. I don't feel anything now. I don't know why I don't go through with it, but probably because I am scared of going to hell. I've often thought of "letting" someone kill me by getting hit by a car or robbing a bank and forcing the police to shoot me, but I don't want anyone else to get hurt. Just me. What do I do now?