Thank you. You are not boring and quite the opposite, to be honest. You have so much energy and I'm the one who's boring. Then my mind wanders a lot sometimes, like I'm always thinking and feeling that I'd never be happy, just same old emptiness because that's how it's been for me everyday. Nothing motivates me anymore, only my child I guess, but I need her presence not how we are now Anyway, I don't really need to find someone like my ex partner, I just need an extraordinary friend I guess, lol. Hard to explain, though sometimes, I find or I meet them, but turns out it's just one way friendship like I'm probably the only one who truly cares, or I don't know. Just don't want to overthink or worry about those kind of stuff. I just wouldn't say my former friends had gone scared with things I'm dealing but more like they are show-offs. They made me think that they're something like, they can do this and that and have this and that, but they're a bunch of, yeah, show-offs. Fake friends, that only would be with you during good times. If anything, I didn't ask for anything or what kind of support, they were quick and eager to reach out back then. Anyway, those people are not really worth talking about. To be honest, it is hard to have a relationship with me or even friends with someone like me, at this point, you have to understand and feel the baggage I've been carrying as well. I could do that to a true friend, but with me, I don't think they can.