I didn't know where to put this. This is very hard for me to say, I only gathered the courage to tell someone about this last night and I don't know if I can go into all the details in this post, but I'll try. I don't even know where to start. I've been struggling a lot recently, I feel as if I'm changing, for the worst, and I seem to lack the control to stop it from happening. I was talking to someone last week, and I said, "people are like snakes, they slither their way into your life, inject their venom and the damage caused depends on the snake and the toxicity of the venom". I have been hurt and let down so many times in really bad ways and now I think that everyone who enters my life is going to hurt me and this is effecting me in a large way. I don't think anyone truly likes me, I really cannot understand why anyone would care for me. I don't like talking about myself because in all honestly, who gives a crap? Seriously. People at work are talking and I think of something that could contribute to the discussion but hold back because why would anyone want to listen to what I have to say? Not only at work, but online, too. Even when it comes to discussions in the staff room on SF, why would anyone want to listen to me? Even typing this now, I am wasting all your time. No doubt when I hit 'submit', I will regret posting this. People who ask me about my life, they don't truly want to know. They are just making conversation. They don't give a crap. No one gives a crap. My self worth is at absolute zero and I can't see it lifting. I just don't know what to do anymore.