I think I may be suffering from depression (wanting to kill yourself is not normal, right?). I haven't talked about this to anyone before. I don't know why. I guess I don't want to seem melodramatic or anything, afraid there might not be an explanation for the way I am. I don't know who to talk to. I don't want to be like this anymore. I don't know why i feel depressed, it can be triggered by some things trivial or big things. I often feel that suicide would stop the pain, that the world can do without me, that being dead would stop all feelings and all emotions because I would cease to exist, like being unborn. I have stopped myself from doing it up till now because I think of the hurt it will cause my family and friends, and it has been that thought solely that has kept me going. I feel I need to speak to someone. Who though? I can't explain the way I feel, the way it hits me and why - I don't understand it, don't know if it is depression. Should I speak to a doctor - I'm scared they will dismiss me as a hyprochrondriac (I can't spell) and would rather see people with 'real' problems. My friends? My flatmate has suffered from depression, and I feel they would understand me, and we are reasonably close. But I don't want to be a trigger, or belittle her suffering, or appear to be dumping my problems on someone else. I need some advice from you guys. This is a big step on me as it is the first time I've committed my true feelings to paper (e-paper?). You all seem like really decent people on here (keep up the good work).