I feel as though I should give up on all the things people have told me. I am not getting anywhere. After the other week after i discharged myself I had a letter from the hospital asking me to go back in for an appointment. Well I called them and said to them is there any point in going in as had been before. The person on reception said that I should and then I had a phone call from the person who I saw there last time and she said that they cant help and that I should see my counsellor. it was as though I had called asking for appointment but I called to double check. Then she goes on to say is not clinical depression but more than likely some personality disorder. Well what is it, and now I feel like some crazy person. I keep thinking about ending it but then the only thing that keeps me going at the moment is my bf. Things are really good between us at the moment but I feel on edge and as though they wont be like it for long as have had roblems in the past. I shouldnt feel as though I am always walking on egg shells. He doesnt do it to me I suppose it is the way I am. So what do I do? I love him so much and I want to marry him next yr. He doesnt cause my problems and I dont want to put him through everything that I do., I feel so sorry for him!