Hey glad your here. Sounds like you are not dealing well with your psychosis I would hope you have seen a psychiatrist to get on meds to make the psychotic episodes go away. People can lead a normal life with this illness if their meds are right. Are you on anything for your anxiety. I agree with Kankuro you need to get outside more go for awalk go for a swim Exercise does help decrease depression especiallly swimming. Can you phone a friend to see if they could spend some time with you. Writing what you are feeling in a journal helps to as this will help your doctor see where your mind is at give him or her some insight. Keep talking to us here okay people here care and if you do get to the point of crisis phone the hospital emerg or crisis line they will give you some good coping skills as well.