I want to give up. I am tired very very tired. I want to sleep and never wake up. I am to tired to eat, I am to tired to sleep, to tired to move, to tired. I have no one to help me. My husband hates me, my kids said they would rather have money then a mother. My family would rather talk to my husband then me. the only friend i thought i had i find out just wants to use me for sex like every other male i come in contact with. I am not even good looking so i can't understand that one. People just want to use me and throw me away. and I am tired of it. It has been 26 years now and it is not getting any better. sure it was good when the kids where younger but now they are older they do not like me either. I am a fuck up and a loser. why do i keep going? what is the point? I am even tired of my animals ( and I normally love animals). I could not careless for anything or anybody. It would be to easy to talk those pills I have in my car and just die. but i haven't! why?? do i enjoy the pain and agony that people put me through?? Fuck no but yet I continue to get up every day and be a vombie, or robot and pretend that all is right with the world cause if i told any one they would not care any way. what the fuck do I do now!