So a little more than two weeks ago I actually had my first relationship with someone. I was pretty surprised because who would want someone as ugly and fat and weird and awkward like me, I'm a pretty boring person too. Aside that, I finally felt so happier than I was in life. Five days later, she broke up with me saying it was because she wanted to focus more on school and stuff, and deleted her Facebook because it distracted her. I understood her reasoning, but aside from that I started to cry and harm myself... I don't understand myself it was just FIVE DAYS. All my friends were saying stuff like how it would be weird to be sad over a relationship for five days but I fucking felt broke as fuck. After all of it life just got so FUCKING WORSE. I don't know how to cope with this I don't know what to do. What made all of this even worse is I figured out she never deleted her Facebook ad just blocked me. Along with that shes been ignoring me, even though she said she still wanted to be friends and I did too. I don't know what the fuck I did wrong but it sure as hell got me sad knowing she probably never liked me in the first fucking place. It was too good to be true. It was fucking two weeks ago the relationship for FIIIIVE days and I'm still sad over it and continue to harm myself and yesterday it was all I could think off and it got so fucking far into my head I started looking for "methods" and that's actually how I stumbled upon this site.... WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? I don't want to be like one of those obsessive people but at least I'm not stalking her and shit idk what to do it gets so fucking deep in my head it hurts I start to hurt physically WHY CANT I JUST GET THE FUCK OVER IT LIKE ANY NORMAL PERSON?!? OR is this normal because people sure as hell said it wasn't. And then what made shit even MORE worse is I made a stupid ass move by sending her a pic of my harm marks and shit, I know dumbass move aint it Im such a FUCK UP it put SOOO much more stress on me even today I'm stressing out about on it right now my head fucking hurts like hell just thinking about it so much I'm shaking PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH ME????