I was in a stupid car accident. It wasn't bad. Just got a few minor cuts... .... But I wish it was worse. I wish something worse happened to me. Why? I feel like such a freak... I have no idea why. It has nothing to do with people knowing and feeling sorry for me. I'd be grateful if they never knew... If no one ever knew... I just want this pain to feel justified. I want this depression to be matched. To mean something. Why am I such a freak? Why...?