Today marks the last Monday I will be alive thru. I give up. I am sick, my teeth are failing. I can't stop my coughing. I am running out of money, I am on the brink now with loosing my job, I can't stop drinking, for more than a few days. Plus I am not really over my wife. I can't go on anymore. I no longer possess the strength or will to do so. I just can't.