Im 23 years old, with no education or job expiriance. What the point to fight the depression? Even if ill make it and i will feel better, i still think about how hard my life will be i will have to work on some shity job to earn few bucks and then to spend them on education, that will allowe me to get a better job where ill work to earn some more, and then ill spend it on more education... But what the point? why should i spend more then 10 years working and reciving education? In the end all i will get out of it is maybe a bigger house with a bigger TV and a nice car... Is it really worth it? I dont think so! Some may say (my ignorant parents) all i need is to find a girl and to create a fammily. What for? There is no point! So ill have a GF.. it will not make me feel better... Sometime i really think that the reason i was born is some sort of punishment for something i done in my previous life or something like that... Other times i think that something is just pulling me, its like there is someone waiting for me in the after life, and he\she messing with my mind to force me to kill myself... I remember in my last SA, i felt like something or someone touched me it happend twise while i lied in my bed, it even was the reson why i woke up in the first place... I was tarrified and felt like there is someone in the room In any case, i am more intersted about what is there after we die then about this life, and its not like i sad and that is why i want to kill myself its more like i cant kill myself and that is why im sad... And the only thing i really sad about loosing, and im sure there will be no such thing in the after life, is computer games, its my whole life! If you think about it, the fact that im atractd to "diffrent" reallityes maybe it have something to o with the fact that i want to die!