I grew up in the LDS Church and my parents and family are all very active. I am not. I fell away when I was in high school and haven't "really" looked back. I personally don't agree with stuff and get really frustrated and anxious when people bring up that I don't go to church or I'm breaking the rules. But that's not the problem here. The problem is that I grew up in a very active, church going family and was basically torn away from that due to some terrible things. And there's been this empty spot in my soul. Like what I did believe in is gone and I need to find something else to believe in. It don't want it to be religion, but I don't know what to believe in then. When you don't believe in a god, what do you believe in?