so I am finally graduating high school this week after 5 years. I am supposed to attend a college far away from home in 2 months. I'm scared, feel completely unprepared, and part of me just doesn't want to go. I don't feel I can consistently do anything without a tremendous amount of support. My family probably can't afford any expensive programs (most range from $1000+ a night). I feel like my life is a dead end and I don't know what to do. I have borderline personality disorder,depression,gad, and learning disabilities and have been in treatment for over 5 years so I don't expect significant improvement anytime soon. So what do I do now? I've been trying to take a writing class at community college but even that is too much and triggers suicidal thoughts, etc. I know there is "get a job!" and i've had a part job for a few years but its ending and I don't feel healthy enough to work a lot of hours. I also believe I will become more depressed if I miss the whole college experience. I'm at a lost of what to do. Any advice on my options??