Does anyone know any good resources? I don't care even if it's a long read... I would like to change something in my life, or at least try to... My last attempt made me realize more than ever that i don't truly want to die. Today my doctor told me i probably won't need skin transplantation, because my wound is healing fast, which filled me up with some hope. Although i'm still suicidal, i'm currently not in the state to try it again anytime soon. I could have end up in a wheelchair that night but all i got was large wound. Perhaps i should be happy that i can still walk, that car could have easily killed me, which was my intention? Or wasn't it? Perhaps it was a cry for help for my innerself (nobody knows it wasn't an accident)?