My name is jimmy. I am38 years old and have nothing left to live for. My "girlfriend" has made me feel worthless. I have given her every I have, not to mention pawned everything I have to help her. Yet I still haven't done enough! I am about to lose my house and car because of everything I've done, which mind you, I javent done anything to help her. In fact just made the issues worse. I'm not good looking nor I am rich. I have nothing to offer bit my heart and my love which apparently isbt enough. My self esteem, my ego and my self respect are gone I have nothing left to offer anybody! So I leave this as my last thoughts. I only hoped to find love and happiness. I guess it doesn't exist anywhere.