I came here to see if anyone has any idea's for my situation. I've had suicidal thoughts for quite a while now (I've gone as far as to research the means to and chosen a way). I used to cut myself, but for some reason don't now. I haven't told any of my friends, and I'm sure none of them will pickup on the pain I'm feeling (which really helps to depress me more). I told my father about my thoughts once, and it only made him angry. I'm afraid to go to a counselor, I know they will ask if I have thoughts of killing myself. If I answer yes, I have a scared feeling my job will find out (as they do, well, lets call them "back ground" checks). I'm afraid if they find out, they will think of me as mentally unstable and fire me. The added stress of losing my job could be the catalyst to push me over the edge. I don't have a wife or girl friend to talk to about this, no brothers or sisters, basically, I'm alone (which is the problem in the first place). I'm tired of selling my self that tomorrow will be better, tomorrow is just a day that never comes.