I'm in my early 30's and have suffered from mental health problems for about 13 years now. The last 2 years have been hell, with my symptoms worsening and no medication or therapy seems to help. I don't want to live like this and I know I can't stand another 13 days of this let alone another 13 years. I really can't see myself ever growing old and most days I am surprised that I have got this far without killing myself, not for want of trying I have a few failed attempts in my past. I don't want to exist like this. I am not 'living' and I am a burden to my family who have to care for me. Their lives wold be so much easier if I was gone. In my head I have written my goodbyes and worked out other issues such as telling my husband how I would like to be buried etc. So now what do I do? Do I tell my shrink how bad its got and risk crisis intervention or do I shut up and keep on with the semi happy image I portray when I am slowly dying inside? Help.