I know i have problems nobody should feel so low so frequently, i hide it well or at least i think i do but i don't know how to feel better and i don't know how to approach someone professionally about it. My biggest fear is being regected and told to pull myself together and what would my family think of me? The battle is slowly being lost as things chip away at me more and more. If i am asked how i feel it's automatic that i say i'm fine, i don't want to bring others down. I wish i could but tell people but i lack the strength i feel safest shut away from others. i am writing this on one of my better days otherwise i don't think i could manage it. I would just hit the drink and numb the pain for a while, which makes me feel worse in the long run.