I was fine yesterday. But today I am very upset and angry. The only reason I'm alive is that I really love my parents. I don't know what to do. I m smashing my hand. I have three options break my hand, cut or 10 aspirin. What should i do now? I know that in long run I should die. My elder brother is getting married today. He lives in another country. He didn't invited my to wedding. But its fine, we are still cool. The point is that he is smarter than me and he can take better care of our parents than me. But my parents won't shift to another country if I am here. So for the betterment of my parents I should die.