Suicide has been running around in my head since I was about thirteen. I am 28 and so at 13, this was the height of Harry Potter, Charmed and Friends - among others. I remember clearly thinking 'If I killed myself now, how would I know what happened on the fifth book?" I kept saying the same thing about Charmed and Friends and whatever other obsessions I had at the time. Harry Potter, Charmed and Friends quite literally kept me alive at the time. What are your reasons to hang around?