ok what the heck.
I wanna say curss medicine at this point. Well. I'm sure its my.. fault.
Gosh.
I took Zoloft back in high school and made a weird youtube video (I had to make it private cuz of haters making terrible "jokes" on the video, claiming I'm always like that when the point of the youtube video was to be ironically the opposite of how I usually act.)
ok so I started taking
new
anti-depressent
anti-anxiety
medicine
like some people told me I should
and wow.
today someone kept saying I said all this weird stuff to them yesterday. It ends up I did, I just didn't remember anything from yesterday.
and now today
someone that said I can vent to them "as much as I want to" blocked me without discussing it with me or saying a single word to me.
this
anti-anxitey
anti-depressent medicine
seems to suck so bad.
This is only my second day taking it.
I don't feel less anxious and depressed. Just a tiny bit more talkative, maybe.. I keep.. doing.. stupid.. stuff.. on the internet.. followed by people.. bringing it up to me or/and blocking me immediately. I keep saying. Stupid stuff on the internet.
This SUCKS.
I made my situation WORST.
A cool person (that knows my internet Sensei) told me I can "vent to them as much as I want to."
I did today and they blocked me without saying a single word at all to me.
Gosh.
I keep trying to add them on alt accounts to ask them why they blocked me, but they won't accept my friend requests.
Gosh.
And yesterday I said all this stupid stuff the entire day and night to people.
GOSH.
THIS anti-depressent anti-anxiety medicine SUCKS.
I was worried it'd make me "too brave" and say weird stuff online and someone irl told me to tell my psychiatrist that.
Gosh darn it.
I'm sure its too soon to judge this medicine, I'll wait a few weeks and see how it effects me..
BUT GOSH
Today and yesterday I took it for the first two days and apparently I am causing more heveck on the internet than I usually do.
gosh darn it.
and I'm crying for the fifth time today cuz of the person blocking me. I cried this morning a few times too as I wrote on other threads today.
this anti-anxiety anti-depressent medicine is not working at all for me yet. Its making me act worst. I'm not sure if its the medicine or if I've always been this sucky and never realized it this much until now.
Everyone I talk to online keeps blocking me. I feel so bad and pathetic and worthless. Also this anti-depressent anti-anxiety medicine hasn't made me feel any less depressed or anxious yet. I feel really sad and mad.
I hate myself so much, I seem to just bother everyone around me, and I hate it, I hate that I never fit in.. I never do... This medicine seems to suck so far and been making me act worst..
How was your experience with medication?
I wanna say curss medicine at this point. Well. I'm sure its my.. fault.
Gosh.
I took Zoloft back in high school and made a weird youtube video (I had to make it private cuz of haters making terrible "jokes" on the video, claiming I'm always like that when the point of the youtube video was to be ironically the opposite of how I usually act.)
ok so I started taking
new
anti-depressent
anti-anxiety
medicine
like some people told me I should
and wow.
today someone kept saying I said all this weird stuff to them yesterday. It ends up I did, I just didn't remember anything from yesterday.
and now today
someone that said I can vent to them "as much as I want to" blocked me without discussing it with me or saying a single word to me.
this
anti-anxitey
anti-depressent medicine
seems to suck so bad.
This is only my second day taking it.
I don't feel less anxious and depressed. Just a tiny bit more talkative, maybe.. I keep.. doing.. stupid.. stuff.. on the internet.. followed by people.. bringing it up to me or/and blocking me immediately. I keep saying. Stupid stuff on the internet.
This SUCKS.
I made my situation WORST.
A cool person (that knows my internet Sensei) told me I can "vent to them as much as I want to."
I did today and they blocked me without saying a single word at all to me.
Gosh.
I keep trying to add them on alt accounts to ask them why they blocked me, but they won't accept my friend requests.
Gosh.
And yesterday I said all this stupid stuff the entire day and night to people.
GOSH.
THIS anti-depressent anti-anxiety medicine SUCKS.
I was worried it'd make me "too brave" and say weird stuff online and someone irl told me to tell my psychiatrist that.
Gosh darn it.
I'm sure its too soon to judge this medicine, I'll wait a few weeks and see how it effects me..
BUT GOSH
Today and yesterday I took it for the first two days and apparently I am causing more heveck on the internet than I usually do.
gosh darn it.
and I'm crying for the fifth time today cuz of the person blocking me. I cried this morning a few times too as I wrote on other threads today.
this anti-anxiety anti-depressent medicine is not working at all for me yet. Its making me act worst. I'm not sure if its the medicine or if I've always been this sucky and never realized it this much until now.
Everyone I talk to online keeps blocking me. I feel so bad and pathetic and worthless. Also this anti-depressent anti-anxiety medicine hasn't made me feel any less depressed or anxious yet. I feel really sad and mad.
I hate myself so much, I seem to just bother everyone around me, and I hate it, I hate that I never fit in.. I never do... This medicine seems to suck so far and been making me act worst..
How was your experience with medication?