What would it be?

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by BornFree, Dec 22, 2014.

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  1. BornFree

    BornFree Well-Known Member

    What would it be if I ceased to be me?
    Would you notice or choose to see?
    Would you question why I chose to die?
    Or would you just acccept with just a sigh?

    How would it be if I found a voice?
    If you cared or understood I have a choice,
    could I find a way to be happier more content.
    Round & round this mountain I circumvent.

    Shattered, exhausted, beyond tired, nothing left
    A shell, a shadow of my previous self, sad, bereft
    Nothing to give, nothing worthwhile to say
    When I am this sick it seems there is no other way.

    Could I help, protect you from the hurt & pain
    make it easier somehow without having to refrain
    from ending this existence, burdening those I love
    could I connect from the other side send care from above?

    Would I ever have anything worthwhile to say
    if I pushed through somehow & found a way to stay
    This is not how I wanted to be, I just long to be free
    free of the physical pain, sickness & burden I've seen

    That I have become, taking more than I am able to give
    Is it so wrong to yearn to be pain free, to feel better, to live?
    To have a connection, to feel that someone understands
    To feel that you receive the love I give without demands

    If I can't see it, does it mean it its any less real?
    Will I ever know, be able to give back, to truly feel
    like I am someone worthwhile, how would it be
    If I were to cease to exist, to cease to be me.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I understand i too hope that physical pain and emotional pain you feel lessens some for you hugs
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