Oh hun :hug: I'm so sorry this is hurting you. What he did to you was so wrong, so damaging. I just wanna go smack him around, lol. :whack:
I can understand your wanting to stop therapy. You've been burned. It'll take a while for you to be able to step back and think differently about the whole situation.
Quitting therapy is your right. You can do it whenever you want. Wanting to stop therapy isn't a reason for him to EOD you. Even if he knows you have a tentative date, you can only be hospitalized against your will if you're an
immediate danger to yourself or others.
(btw... I sincerely hope you sail right past that date and hang in there.)
I wouldn't tell him that you're giving up on therapy. He doesn't have to know that. I think I'd just tell him that you've decided to take a break from therapy for a while. If he presses the issue, you can say that you're not at a place in your life right now where therapy fits, and you're going to step back and think about things. There's nothing suicidal in either of those statements. There's no reason for him to EOD you because of that.
Therapy isn't for everyone. But it can help a great deal. I hope that if this was the only thing that turned you off to it that one day you'll realize this wasn't your fault, was never your burden to bear, and find someone who's competent. Just as it's your right to quit therapy at any time, it's also your right to feel free to say whatever you want in therapy and not have to worry about what the therapist thinks or feels about it. It's their job to take care of you, not the other way around.
In the meantime, lean on all of us here. We'll support you whether you're in therapy or not. :hug:
I'm here for you. PM me anytime.
lol, I feel like I'm channeling my therapist or something. He'd get a kick out of that. :tongue: