can I do to stop the thoughts and pain. I've been posting and writing poetry and short stories to try and get the depth of how bad it is but the words just don't cut it. Nothing does. I feel so unheard, so un-understood, so confused. My skin is crawling and my mind about to burst. It just feels so bloody important that I get people to understand where I am right now. Why? I am doing everything I can not to start planning again. But it just doesn't seem worth the effort to fight the urges. Energy better spent in planning rather than on a fight I'm going to lose anyhow.