well let me start this off saying that i am pretty drunk right now lol. i am probably gonna end my life pretty soon i got a lie detector test for a job. they had me fill out a packet with a bunch of questions on it and i know at least one of them i lied about and they are gonna ask me this question on the polygraph test and i have to stick with my answer or else it will look bad and then they will find out i lied and i will fail it anyways so either way i am screwed cause my parents tell me that this is the last straw that if i dont get this job i am gonna get kicked out of the house cause they are sick of me already and that if i try going to any reletives house that they will kick me outta there as well. well i belive them cause my dad is the authority on both sides of the family whatever he says goes so i am gonna end up as a bum on the street for a while cause i will have no where to go and i got no friends house to go to cause i dont really got any lol well i got a snowboarding trip i saved up money to go on i will probably wait untill after that trip to do it cause snowboarding is fun but anyways my life sucks there is too much to explain how much it sucks and that i hate how my life is going and how much of a pathetic loser i really am and that even if i dont end my life now i will spend it alone anyways so i might as well end it now cause there is no point in waiting much longer i dont know if i will post again but just in case bye everyone!