Realised something over the past couple of days and I've been pottering about doing last bits and pieces and actually for a lot of today feeling really good about the decision I made. And now - well now I'm not feeling so good. Still sure - still definite - just also very very very sad. And I didnt want to do it sad. Idk why I am posting here, writing this, except that I guess I'm hoping to delay a little - a couple of hours - wait for a return to the feeling happy about it. If not - well I guess feeling sad about it is temporary right?