honestly. the only thing keeping me from doing it right now, is that i need to get some things in order, like make sure my dog will be taken care of. I want to spend some time with my son Caden, and my nephew Jeremiah who is like my son, don't want to leave til i can spend a lil time with them. Son lives with his mothers, and i never get to see him. And last but not least i want to have money set aside for my cremation and stuff, because there is no one else who'd take care of that stuff. that's it, nothing else is holding me here,