whats in my head

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by wish it was over, Nov 23, 2007.

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  1. wish it was over

    wish it was over New Member

    the number of times i have looked in the mirror and wished it was over. why was i bought in to this world , im constantly thinking of ways i can hurt my self to punish me,god it feels great seeing the blood running down my wrist,arm,leg, any where,. no one knws hw i feel or what goes on in my head. running the blade over me is like a drug i crave..

    i have self harming my self for 2 years, never thought i wld have the guts, but here i am wish i was no more.

    i have been married not for long but my partner thinks i do it for attention,every time we have a fight which is very often ,thats the first thing i do, yes i hate my self afterwards,while trying to cover the scars.but this is something i need to do ...no one under stands what is in my head. i have tried to explain to him, but over the years he has given up, he no longer is around, always to busy,never has anything good to say to me or about me..can u blame him im a mess. he scares me

    i have even tried an overdose, that didnt work - i blacked out woke up next day with a bad head and not remebering anything.

    i wish i had the guts to end my life like my cousin.... is this life ever going to end
     
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