All of this... this struggling, the tests the qualifications and degrees... Is it really just so that I can earn more money later in life? I can't see how that can bring me happiness. And now I wonder why did I ever start this course, move away from the woman I loved and loved me so that i could, and now it's over and she's moved on and there is nothing I can do to ever get her back. Why do I bother getting up each day just to trudge through the same monotimy as the day before, the only thing i see in the future is more challenges, more tests, more work, more responsibilities and obligations. Why go out just on the off chance that i might meet a girl that could make me feel loved again, even when every failure, which is always inevitable just sinks me lower, makes me more depressed, and hopeless and less wanted by anyone... Why do I bother anymore?