I'm new, I posted an introductory in the designated area.. :biggrin: I'm curious, whats keeping you going? If you had to pick up to three things what are your major motivators for living? What are the hopes or reasons you keep hanging on? I do think everyone has to have at least one thing preventing their suicide. I see most here including myself have made attemps but what is your reason for not persisting? My reasons are the following 1- My boyfriend. I know it sounds cliche and young and dumb but sometimes I feel like he's my only reason. We've been together for two years but he was my best friend all through highschool... I know he needs me as much as I need him and I hate hurting him. 2- Odd as it sounds, the idea of being a mother one day. Being a mommy one day was something I have always wanted... even though I often doubt I'd be any better at that than everything else I'm no good at... 3- The hope of being able to move away one day and be somewhere new.. maybe theres somewhere I could be happy.