Being diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder since I was 15, I've been in and out of psych hospitals with multiple suicide attempts. I'm a survivor but I wonder what I'm supposed to do with the mental illness that I suffer so much from. I don't have a purpose in the real world and can't relate to most people who already have a life of their own with children, spouse, career, etc. No wonder I feel so out of place in this world. I use this forum to vent and to offer support when I can. That's my life right now, to engage in this forum and go to intensive group therapy every week day. I just don't feel I belong anywhere and nobody in the real world understands me. It's just me and the world. I guess I'll hang around just for a while longer because I have no choice.