First I lost my job. If I were a so called "normal" person I could probably get a new job, but with my social anxiety I am too afraid to even apply for a new job, which probably sounds stupid. I don't even want to leave my house most of the time. Then I lost a friend I have had for years and it's not like I have lots of friends or can easily make more. I feel like I was always the one doing things for her or what she wants and she could not be bothered even if it was something really important to me. I'm just tired of it. They say things come in threes.......... I'm so tired of living. It is just not worth it. For some people things don't get better. I'm just so tired. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.