What's currently stopping you from ending it? Fear of pain, a loved one, clinging unto finishing something, the never-ending "what if"s? Go ahead and take it out off your chest. For me it's the fear of the physical pain that you feel while going through the whole process of killing yourself, and as much dumb as it might sound, a music album that I want to finish before offing myself, I'm already at 65% though. I feel like I have the obligation of leaving something behind, I've already recorded an EP before but I want to finish my second release. I also wanted to write a book, but I don't picture myself as a great writer, and most of the time I just don't feel inspired enough to keep writing, I technically "started" it but it's only 2 pages. The only living beings I genuinely love are my dogs, I'm 20 and I live with my parents but I stopped caring about them, it's not that I hate them, there was a time where I would have cared about how they would react to my death, but I stopped caring ever since I started thinking about suicide every day.