What's the best way to die.I m very sick of my life. I don't have the motivation to continue with my life. I really wish that my dad didn't save me when I was A fetus in my mother's womb so that she can successfully kill me. If I died at that point of time than my dad wont have tO die tragically. And I wont have to suffer so many defect and problem on myself.I m a moving target for bullies. I guess I m prone to be a loser . I m sure even god dislike me so much . I wish my country didn't control sleeping pills if not I gona sallow til my stomach full of it When I am infront of the ancestor tablet I don't even have the face to look. I am born such a failure I should have died ahead of him.