i've just been discharged from a private psych hospital today. i was in there for about three weeks. when i was in there i didnt do much, saw a psychiatrist every day and took my meds. i came out feeling the same, if not worse, than when i went in there. it didnt help me at all. for the majority of the time i was the only one my age (16) in there. this afternoon my bf has said to me that hes thinking about whether he wants to dump me or not, because he thinks im not trying to get better. i am, so hard. i cant believe him. hes really pissed me off. ive been crying most of the afternoon and cut a couple times coz i couldnt calm down. i want to kill myself, but just thinking about it makes me feel horrible for my family who have been so supportive through the past two years with my depression. like a patient told me in the hospital, parents should never have to bury their own child. i dont know what to do. i feel absolutely horrible. im not sure i want to die. i just want the indescribable pain to end.