People never fail to disappoint me. At all times, it seems, and I'm easily disappointed. Probably because I've experienced such since since birth it seems, it's become habitual to expect people to act like douchebags at some point. Maybe my expectations for people are too high. It seems no matter how much I try to be myself with others, I always end up being the one isolated, the one no one likes. And there are those I try to be nice and considerate with, and they insist on being insulting trash bags and making attitudes more problematic than they need to be. Shit. It's been like this since forever and with almost every human being I've ever known in my entire life. I can't get along with people. Never could. That's just how it is. It's my personality. I was born with it, it's not going to change. It'll kill me in the end anyway, so what's the point in changing who I am even if I could. It just gets exhaustingly dull having every situation with people end up exactly the same disappointing way. I'm gonna just stop trying to harmoniously socialize with people entirely. And I'm gonna be honest with you: I've been seeing the same shit for 25 years and I'm tired. I'm just tired. Tired of trying to care, tired of caring and tired of trying. Mostly I'm tired of being fucking tired. Things don't change much. What's the point in expecting them to anymore?