Hi, I am new here, I joined in hopes to get help with my suicidal thoughts, though also don't see why I should or what good it will do to hear: "Its okay!" In a number of different ways. Well, I am 23 - Disabled - When I was younger I broke my neck and became fully paralyzed. Since then I learned to walk again somewhat, still severe weakness in my right side and I can barely make it 1/4 of a mile before my legs give out and I fall to the ground. Now, I have no family - My father kicked me out on the streets when I was 16, and my mother pawned me off to my father shortly after I broke my neck. I live alone in a one bedroom apartment, no family, no friends, and all I get to live on each month from the Government is 635$. I am renting the cheapest place I could find, and after all my bills I usually end up with a whopping 10$ a month for food. (Really that is about it) I eat about once ever 3-4 days because of it, and recently my car was totaled by a drunk driver so I no longer have a way to get around. To Top it all off I have went down and requested my Medicare card on 4 separate occasions, yet they never sent it to me so I can't even go to the doctor. Here I am, someone who can't even afford food, stuck with no transportation and the closest bus stop is about a mile or so away, I can't even make it there if I tried. Currently in bad debt to the point I am pretty sure I am going to lose my apartment in November and be Homeless in the cold winter of Colorado, disabled and incapable of walking any sort of long distances. I have no family, no friends, can't even afford food. So, Can someone... Anyone find a reason I should keep going? I don't want to commit to suicide as my answer, but there are no other options. Either that or just live on the streets in the winter in Colorado when I can't even walk a full mile without my legs giving out. I'd like to think I am rather sane and level headed, but at this point I see no other option for me. Honestly, What's the point? I have no friends, No family, Have no way to get anywhere, I can not work, and I am as poor as can be pretty much. If someone could find a reason, please, do tell. Thanks.