I'm not sure how people here feel about race issues but microaggressions and racism in general make me feel worthless. I get that not everyone is going to like me. That's true for for anybody. But being seen as dumb or incompetent or as a threat (or at least feeling that way) by a large majority of people is too much to bare for me. I feel like an outsider. Whenever I ask for or look up anything inspirational, I always get the same thing about proving people wrong. But what's the point? Sure I may get one or two people to think twice about how they feel about black people but what about the millions of others? There will never be any point where I have "proven" myself. I will always and forever be validated by just a select group of people. I have to prove myself again and again and again. Who else can say that about just being themselves? Not for performing a task at work or overcoming a physical or mental difficulty. But for just being yourself. Sometimes I feel like suicide is the best option.